No Birthday Gifts For Me!!

It is appears that this year is not starting off with a bang for me. I have defiantly stopped losing weight. I am sad about it, but it is my own fault. I have lost my way and started eating things I should not be eating, which has raised the amount of calories I have been consuming. I have also not been exercising, which is a must, no matter what type of diet or lifestyle change you make. Don’t get me wrong, while I am sad, I am not disappointed in my weight loss to this point. I feel so delighted to have lost 40 lbs this quickly and I am sure once I get over this small bump in the road I will lose 40+ more pounds.

I think it is good to realize the reasons why you want to lose the weight before you try doing it. I know for me it is because I want to live. I turn 32 today (happy birthday to me..lol) and I feel like I have yet to truly live life. I think losing the weight and getting my confidence and self esteem back is the key to accomplishing this task.

Why did I fall off track…hmm…well that is easy to answer. I am afraid. I got nervous about how the people were looking at me differently and it felt weird. It was a new set of feelings for me and I wasn’t sure how to deal with them. I was also concerned I wouldn’t have the money to get new clothes or go out more if I developed new friendships. Ya know, it is kind of awkward sharing all of this, but it is a way to help myself and maybe others too. Anyways, I know I will get over these hurdles. I am already developing a plan!

I have an appointment next week to see my doctor. I am supposed to get a fill, which will cause me to start losing weight again. I am also thinking about seeing if I should go on liquids again for two weeks to help get the negative things I carve out of my system again. I will also use this time to “try” and pull a “Biggest Loser” on myself and bust my ass with exercising. I don’t know if this will work, but it is the plan for now. I guess ya’ll will have to check back to see how things work out! Keep your fingers crossed!

Just something I received at work that I thought I would share. Enjoy!

Make a Fresh Start: 10 Tips
Tuning in to what motivates you can help you make a big change, such as quitting smoking, losing weight, starting an exercise program or reducing stress.

1. Know yourself. Think about what drives you. You may feel pride in a job well done, enjoy getting praise from others or be inspired to change by a personal event.

2. Choose realistic goals. Look toward results that are specific and reachable. “I will lose 10 pounds by the summer” is easier to reach than a general one such as “I want to be thinner.”

3. Take one step at a time. Break down large goals into small steps. If you want to reduce stress, you might start by learning one new calming technique, crossing one item off your to-do list or setting up a space in your home for quiet reflection.

4. Set a time frame. Mark your start date and deadlines on your calendar.

5. Build confidence. Do easy tasks first to create a positive attitude.

6. Recall your purpose. Why are you making this change? Perhaps you want to feel and look better, live longer so you’ll enjoy your grandchildren, have more energy or be successful at work. Use your values as inspiration.

7. Cut out distractions. Make reaching your goal a priority. Schedule it into your day like any other appointment. Recognize that you might need to get more rest and cut back on obligations as you work toward your goal.

8. Plan for setbacks. Know that the road may be bumpy. Decide now what you’ll do when you have a tough day, such as calling a friend or doing something special for yourself.

9. Ask for help. Set up a support network of people you trust who can help you meet your goal.

10. Reward yourself. Every accomplishment, no matter how small, deserves recognition.

Strange New Feelings

Have you got your shopping done yet?? I have finally finished my shopping. The good thing about shopping is you get to do a lot of walking. All of the walking, while it seems like a pain, is good for weight losing weight. I try to park far away from the store to give myself more distance to walk. I also like to park in a central location and walk to several stores from one location. I guess it is one way of getting exercise.

The other good thing about this time of year is the amount of people out and about shopping. This is the one time of year you will see such a diverse group of people all in one store. I was even amused by the number of guys standing in lines at Bed, Bath and Beyond, etc. It is nice to see all the diversity.

I have been experiencing a new feeling lately. While shopping, I noticed on numerous occasions people were looking at me. It is different for me because I am use to being the fat kid and people only looking at me with disgust in their eyes. I find it awkward to have women and men stare at me and then smile. I know this is suppose to be a good feeling, but I am so not used to it. I know it sounds crazy, but you probably have to be in my shoes to understand it. It is like being the poor kid who wins the lottery and everyone suddenly likes me.

As for my weight, I think I have finally plateaued. I know most people get upset when this happens, but I am just so thrilled at the amount of weight I have lost so far. It has only been a couple of months and I feel like a new person. I know when I start working out and get another fill that my weight will start going down again. Until then, I am happy and look forward to the future.

I am really glad that I have lost so much weight, but I feel as though I don’t know myself. I used to spend so much time worrying about what other people thought that I didn’t live my own life. Since the weight is disappearing, I find myself happier then I have ever been in my life. I have a very positive attitude about everything. I want to be happy and enjoy this new found happiness. I will admit at times I feel lost because I am not used to being happy and doing fun things. I spent so much time hiding that I am not sure what to do now that I am coming out to enjoy life. Also, with the weight gone, I have more energy and feel really bored. I am hoping the exercising will help this issue. Time will tell, I will keep ya posted!