Strange New Feelings

Have you got your shopping done yet?? I have finally finished my shopping. The good thing about shopping is you get to do a lot of walking. All of the walking, while it seems like a pain, is good for weight losing weight. I try to park far away from the store to give myself more distance to walk. I also like to park in a central location and walk to several stores from one location. I guess it is one way of getting exercise.

The other good thing about this time of year is the amount of people out and about shopping. This is the one time of year you will see such a diverse group of people all in one store. I was even amused by the number of guys standing in lines at Bed, Bath and Beyond, etc. It is nice to see all the diversity.

I have been experiencing a new feeling lately. While shopping, I noticed on numerous occasions people were looking at me. It is different for me because I am use to being the fat kid and people only looking at me with disgust in their eyes. I find it awkward to have women and men stare at me and then smile. I know this is suppose to be a good feeling, but I am so not used to it. I know it sounds crazy, but you probably have to be in my shoes to understand it. It is like being the poor kid who wins the lottery and everyone suddenly likes me.

As for my weight, I think I have finally plateaued. I know most people get upset when this happens, but I am just so thrilled at the amount of weight I have lost so far. It has only been a couple of months and I feel like a new person. I know when I start working out and get another fill that my weight will start going down again. Until then, I am happy and look forward to the future.

I am really glad that I have lost so much weight, but I feel as though I don’t know myself. I used to spend so much time worrying about what other people thought that I didn’t live my own life. Since the weight is disappearing, I find myself happier then I have ever been in my life. I have a very positive attitude about everything. I want to be happy and enjoy this new found happiness. I will admit at times I feel lost because I am not used to being happy and doing fun things. I spent so much time hiding that I am not sure what to do now that I am coming out to enjoy life. Also, with the weight gone, I have more energy and feel really bored. I am hoping the exercising will help this issue. Time will tell, I will keep ya posted!