Reflection - My Body and Weight Loss

Can you believe it has been almost two weeks since my last doctor visit? I cannot believe how fast the time has passed. I am suppose to go back to the doctor in two weeks, but I don't think that is necessary since my body has decided after losing so much in one month that is it going to go into a plateaued mode. It is a little frustrating, but I am learning to deal with it. I have kinda taken the past two weeks off to allow my body to gain a little bit of weight so it thinks I am not starving or overworking it. It seems to be happy now and my knees have also healed, which means I can finally start working out again. I will keep you posted on how that goes.

I just wanted to remind those who read this and have the lap-band, weight loss surgery or any kind of diet that the body is kinda funny and very frustrating. We are all different and some of us lose non-stop (like the awesome FSP-Kim), some lose then go into plateaus after losing weight (that would be me) and some rush it and just gain because they put the body into shock. If you are like me, then you understand my frustration. I think is important to learn to read your body because it might help your frustration. What I have noticed with my body is that when I am on a plateau my body actually is losing inches instead of weight. I know we all want to see the number on the scale go down, but it just important that we do it right and allow ourselves to enjoy the moments when we get to buy new clothes or in my case fit into a roller coaster again. As frustrating as each of our bodies can be, the one thing I have learned through this process is be patient and accepting, which I know sounds funny. After realizing this I have set new goals that I think are realistic and attainable. My doctor would like for me to hit the 100 lb loss marker by my band anniversary, but my goal is to hit the 75 lb loss marker by then (September 4, 2008). I am giving myself until Christmas to lose 100 lbs and you must admit that is one hell of a present. I have no clue who I will feel when I hit that marker.

Ok, enough of me reflecting, let me tell you how things went the weekend after my doctor's appointment. As you know I was planning on going to see my childhood friend at her sister's wedding and I did go. I have added pics to my albums for you to check out how I have changed (which I have a hard time seeing in the mirror). The wedding was a success and everyone was happy to see me and that I lost so much weight. They kept telling me about it all night and wishing me the best, which I honestly needed to hear. It was nice seeing all of my friends and I miss my friends so much because they give me so much courage and confidence. After talking to them and discussing my future I will be making some very interesting changes in my future, so stay tuned.

Also, as I promised myself when I hit the 250 goal, I bought myself an annual pass to Busch Gardens. I was nervous because the last time I was there I could not fit into the roller coasters. The next day after the wedding I went to Busch Gardens with a friend and it didn't go as well as I had thought, but I was happy to finally fit in the seats. The bad part was the roller coaster bars that keep you in the seat pushed in on my port and after a few hours I was in a lot of pain, not to mention my head was throbbing from being tossed around. I think maybe once I lose more weight this might not be an issue. Anyways, we had to stop because I was getting sick and turning pale (which I now know was from dehydration and sinus issues). Overall, I don't regret it because I finally got to do something I had been telling myself I would not be able to go again. It was nice to be wrong. I hope each of you are setting small goals and accomplishing them too.

I wish you all the best on your journeys and I hope my blogs help. I think it is time for me to go work out. Catch ya later!

~Think Positive and Stay Healthy~

Mixed Emotions

As some of you know I have been trying for awhile to reach my goal (250 lbs). My hope was for it to have happened last month, but no such luck. I was more determined then ever to reach my goal this month. I even had a secret super goal to reach 238 lbs (a loss of 16 lbs in one month). The super goal was created because it is my 70 lb marker and I have an old childhood friend coming to town and I wanted to surprise her with my weight loss since she doesn’t know I have had surgery. My friends at work told me that I was crazy to even have the super goal, but I guess we are all a little crazy in our own way.

I was doing really well with my meals and walking (6 miles every other day), until I hurt my knee. I did as the doctor ordered and stayed off it a little, but then started walking again, but only 5 miles this time. I am having pains in both knees and try to give myself more time off between my walks.

As for my gain during my off week, it happens and I have to accept it. I should learn not to get frustrated with situations I cannot change, which causes me to eat. I need to learn how to stay on schedule and just subtract the walking. This is something I need to work on in the future.

Anyways, I went to the doctor yesterday and I wasn’t sure what to expect given my previous week. I was really nervous, but willing to except whatever came my way. I honestly thought I would be okay, but ya never know. I stepped on the scale and I had mixed emotions. I was happy and frustrated at the same time. Why, well, because I was just 2 lbs shy of meeting my “super goal”!! That’s right, if I had controlled myself the week before I would have reached the super goal and loss 16 lbs, but to be honest I was so damn happy to have finally reach my 250 lb goal. I have lost 68 lbs so far and it just seems so surreal to me. I am still at a loss.

As for my doctor, he was very pleased with me. However, he prefers for me to only loss 6 to 8 lbs a month and that is the goal for next month. I guess we will see what happens given my knee issues. I’ll keep ya posted on my progress.

~Think Positive and Stay Healthy~

Weekly Review - April 28, 2008

Overall, last week went pretty well until the end of the week. I have been walking 6 miles every other day, but last week it seems I put too much strain on my right knee and it started to hurt. I had to stop walking and decided to let it rest. I went to the doctor today and he told me he thinks I sprained my knee. He ordered an x-ray to make sure it isn’t anything worse. I am going to continue to rest until he releases me to do more walking. I am frustrated because my body has started to react to the pain and I have gained 3 lbs since Wednesday, which might not sound like much, but it means I will not achieve my super goal. However, if all goes well, I should be able to achieve my first goal of 250 lbs, as long as my body doesn’t continue to gain. I hope when I start taking the anti-inflammatory pain medications my body will return to normal and I can start walking and losing again. I have also decided to give myself a break this week and not count all my calories. I hope ya’ll are doing better than me; stay focused on your goals!

~Think Positive and Stay Healthy~